What Do I Wish ?

Finally I can open first recharger, so at least I dont need to worried for work 13 hours for this month. Seeing a lot of local being friend, and the only person I want to know now ignore and avoid my number again, it is kinda hurt but I know I am gonna survive.

There is a lot can happen until June, isnt it ?
Right now, I just wish that I can earn, and buy my iphone in salary day. Rewards myself to start 2026 and live better. I still wanna give her a gift, and even it was a very small and little, I really wish she can and want to talk with me, in a very small ways. No more, no less. I wish that I can go back with less burden, live well, and be a good writer.

Seeing her from this side somehow already make me feel enough. Well, I hope this feeling can change, no talk, no care, and try my best to live myself. Its OK if someone didnt want to be our friend anymore because of other people. I want to buy myself a rewards, and I wish to save up, live a better life and do all the best things that I can.

What gonna happen next, I am wondering. Maybe, before June everything will be different and I wouldnt give anything, or maybe things get better ? I think, there is nothing like being better gonna happen. Just make my imaginations bit more happy for now.

If today she not pick any of my number, its mean now is 2nd day in row she avoiding me, again ?
I dont know, I can check the time of her reply, and I think she avoiding it on purpose. or maybe it was me, that think too much ?

Another day gonna pass sooner.
Today until 7 pm, she not pick my number at all. And I talk a little with Meng, which is also a friend of her, Just to share fun things. I try not to speak or chat her, when all I want is to do that as well.

Looking at her, today she put plester in her forehead, which mean headache or fever. but in afternoon, it was gone. I wanna to ask, but since the momment she not take my period meds, I already know that she may not need any of my help as well.

5 more hours, and everything will end, Another day pass, and I wish that I can buy iphone 15, save up and go back home with new phone, new laptop and what matter the most is, a new me as well.
So, let silent speak more louder than story and word. If she dont wanna talk with me until I back home, let it be.

For now, I still stick with my plan, that I am gonna buy her a bracelet, and give her $100 because this far, she not lie to me, yet
Well, 10k apple and forget is kinda hurtful, but since I say no need to buy anymore and she not saying anything, just let it be from now.

Order bihun goreng yang nge-cost 100B I think I am gonna stop order outside and save money from tomorrow and so on. If I keep eating and ordering, I can afford it but, it is not good as well.

Today, she not pick my number, not even one. And my client, really didnt had any money at all. I really make it worse. What gonna happen in this month, still not knowing yet. Wish that I can do well, and no need to do overtime working.

Wish all is good, and everything gonna be OK. I really want to back to Indo with new iphone (which I plan buy in this month) and new laptop (which I plan to buy in my birthday on May 28)

Still a long way to go, and I wish there is no other drama and all just went well until the very end. Need to work hard until I make it out from here. Right now, still not talk with her, she also not pick my number and we not text each other. So, just seeing her only is more than enough for me. Haha.
Poor and silly me.

1 hours left, and I think she 100% not gonna pick my number today. Well, whatever it is, just let time passed and wish all the best for me. Its seem like I mean to be alone, haha
Its oke, everything gonna be OK

I just work, save up and wish I can do what I been planned too. She not pick my number today.
So, I just dont know. Today finally pass too. Wish tomorrow can be better.