Mulai Lagi ?

Been a long time ya, sejak terakhir kali aku benaran nulis pakai bahasa sendiri, which I kinda miss and maybe today I need to start making it in my own language ?

Well, day by day pass.
I am bit regret back home, but I also thankful for that, because God give me what I prayed for, working at home while staying with my mom.

Taking care of alzheimer mom, it is not easy but I still feel very thankful because every momment is very precious.
I keep repeat the same mistake, over and over, and also keep looking for the right method, even most of the time I end up fall again because repeating the same mistake.

If someone ask me, do I tired ?
Tired like hell, but still breathing with a hope that this year will end all of the suffer and start a better life and better me from 2027.

I not sure what gonna happen to me, but I am thankful, God still love me, protect me and help me melewati hari demi hari, meskipun aku tahu hidupku itu gak benar.
Am I that worse, I keep questioning myself until today.

This time, I think the best things I can do is try again and walk slowly.
Telan rasa malu, percaya kalau aku bisa melewati semuanya dan jadi pribadi yang lebih baik slowly dan pasti.

Have a healthy parent, maybe, if I find the right method and not be a greedy person, I can make it before I turn into 40 and retired sooner.
Since life have many un-expected momment, we never know what waiting for us in the future.

Believe in God, trust in His plan, because what he prepare is better than what we think we will do best.
Never lost hope, it is okay if it take a years, as long as we didnt stop, I believe everything will be better for me.