Fixed My Life

Nothing special, still not had client yet. Be prepare to work 13 hours, in this rate haha
Well, she not sending me any client too, and to make my mind at ease and happy, I plan to buy her a gift in her birthday on June 16. Is that wise ?

I wanna to talk with her, but I dont know how to do it. I gonna waiting for her, but if she not talk at all, I think I gonna knock her door in her birthday, give a gift and back room and work. Pretend like nothing happen.
We never figure and know future, arent we ?
So, right now I just want to buy ip15, even I know new ip16 just had 5k bath different. But, if I force to buy 16, I will had no money at all. So, I stick with ip 15 and that is finale.

Day pass, and she not pic my number even once this day. Well, I dont know what is on her mind, but thinking of buying her a gift with a little cash if she stay working until I gone ? Lets think about it first haha
Anyways, another day pass without client recharger.

Will I work overtime ? What is gonna happen next ?
I am wondering. Wish I can stick to the plan, do good, make good. Wish I can go back and saving as I plan, and wish I not working 13 hours too. Whatever happen, I believe everything will happen for the good reason.

Still someday to work 13 hours, wish I can get a client. Haha
Now I had 2 new member in HR side, and I think one of them is Indo ? But I dont think so as well.
Never know, and didnt know. Just look at her, and I am more than happy, with a simple wish that I can talk with her ?

Its seem impossible since I know nothing about her, and I am not start any personal chat with her too. I just didnt want to hurt myself, and I think, maybe I am born to be alone. Hard to be friend, and nobody really want me in their life as well.

She joke with me, asking me to go look at cloth in the past. I dont think it would happen again in future, so, just imagine whatever I like, eat, work and sleep as well. Its always better to keep all the feeling inside, than talk it out. I will buy her a bracelet for her birthday if she not resign yet, and maybe some money because as this far, she is the one who not lie to me as well.

A man name Hatake ask me to exchange, and I told him, I wouldnt help anyone anymore start 2026, I think I shouldnt say that but it is already happen, he seem missunderstand things and mad, but I just let it be, because it is not really important for me now.

Sitting in here sure give me a lot of pressure, especially when the leader can see whatever I do and talk. I am not comfy but I try to comfy myself as well. Right now, I just think how to buy ip 15, and work and not get 13 hours work because there is no recharger yet.

She also not sending me any client yet, and 2 other new person come into HR, which I think they may be Indo as well. So, what gonna happen ? Everything can change in a day, didnt know about June yet.
Should I, or maybe I will had a change of heart ? Wish that I am not had any roomie yet, but if I must had one, I wish the one that come into my roomie is a good one as well. I wish nothing but only that, and the rest ? It is God know for the rest as well.

If I rethink about my life, I know that God is been really good to me. I had a poor family, a rude father, but a lovely mother and what most amaze me is they never ask me anything, not even a single penny when I am work and earn. I put myself into this shit hole because of forex, and now I try to get out from it.

Working until September, I wish I can had a smooth work, and not get into any trouble anymore. Am I gonna had a future roommate sooner ? I am wondering.
Whatever happen, I wish for all the best and good things. And about people who not like me because of whatever they are talking, I just pretend I dont know them, and now I am take myself out from society as well. Its best for me to stay alone and stand alone.

Wish I can make client and no need to work 13 hours, and wish I can save up as plan start next month as well. Whatever happen, I already walk this far, and I think all is well and will be well until my time done in here. Whatever happen, I just want to make sure I come here and fix my life to be better after resign from here.