Slowly, no Greedy !

Day by day passed, I dont even know why I doing the same mistake and being greedy again and again when things just get a bit better from before.
How I can change the life that I put in mess if I not even change the ways on how I doing things ?

Being greedy, didnt thankful for what I got already.
Ending up losing everything again and again.

I think, if I keep things like that, no matter how much can I earn by working hard, everything just burn again because of my own greedy and mistake. The same mistake from the last 6 years until today.

So, when I can really learn the important of that ?
I promise myself to never lend any cent anymore from anyone, and I really want to be better and pay off everything as fast as I can.

But, isnt it giving me the right to be greedy and end up losing a lot ?
I am wonder, why I keep repeating those stupid mistake like I am never learn anything at all ?

Another promise that I want to make is I hope I didnt repeat any stupid with the rest of $200 that I had, or else, I gonna end up having nothing at all and this hell is never end.
Nobody can save me if that is not me.

How many time do I need to keep telling myself ?
I dont know, I just felt like shit because if everyone know what I do and what is the real cause of my situations, everyone will say I am more than stupid.

I really want to change, and I know deep down, it need patient.
Slowly, not greedy !