How Random Your Life Gonna Be ?

Pack your bag, going for travel. Even you not sure how you will survive for the whole month without job, you just pack your bag and go like that. Isnt it scary ?

I go out from home since end of May, and now is my 8 day outside and in Thailand.
Its feel scary at first, but now I start to enjoy the day and try to survive everyday.
Do same things, eat, work, write and sleep. I do meet many new person, which I think it feel so good.

Calling mom, seeing her make me sad.
I really want to back home, but I know that I will suffer as well if I do that.
I have no idea about what I am gonna do, but I trust everything in God plan.

Today I spend around 2k bath to join the trip tour from 7 Am to almost 9 PM.
Back hotel, shower and now plan to dinner while writing, isnt time flies very fast without we notice it ?

Do I scare ? Yes, it is.
My life feel so random.
Meet stranger, be friend with grab driver and plan to have a little vacations.
I am wonder, am I gonna be OK ?

If I keep staying outside, how long I can be survive ?
Sending money to home, survive by renting room and try my best to earn money every Monday – Friday. Is everything gonna be OK ?

What is on my mind right now ?
All I want to do is not being greedy and do my best to earn as best as I can to survive.
Wanna pay off all the debt, do things that make me happy.

I try to forget and let go people who doesnt care about me at all.
Care in 1 ways is too much and more time pass, more I learn that letting go of people that not think we are important is a bless.

Where this road and journey gonna be end ?
I am wondering, can I make it ?