Is the Journey just Begin ?

Well, after many things happen in my life, the only things that I never expected to happen in my life is how I can end up being in Bangkok, rent a hotel for almost $30 alone and didnt had any going back plan yet with 60 day visa.

At first, maybe I think I am too stupid that I stayed and come to Bangkok because I want to see and meet GC. By finding the hotel that I think I gonna cry, and now I ending up renew 1 more night not even when I stay inside yet, am I crazy or in another level or stress and not sure ?

Honestly, I think I can live well staying in here up to visa end if I can earn $100 everyday, which like what I do 3 week before and being consistance. If I need to pay a room for $30 not including food, I think I can make it well by earning $100 by working hard.

Since there is nothing that I can do in Saturday and Sunday, working a lot and earning first, then I can spend it for weekend, doesnt it seem like a bad idea ?
Not at all.

What make me sad is that when I pass immigrations from my own city and country, I being asked like a crime, and thank God, that I can pass it because what I do is really wanna write about my journey, which I didnt know when it gonna end.

Can I make it, being a writer, going anywhere, and be a better me everyday, or can I end up back into the cave that I avoid after more than 8 month passed ?
I am wondering myself.

One last things, I am wondering, is giving gc my card is a right decisions right now ?
Or should I say, is that even worth it ?