We Born in Same Date

Birthday pass, and today was my brother birthday. We had a 2 year different and 1 day different in our born date, which I kinda salute to my mom as well.

Seeing my mother conditions, there is a lot of things that make me think,
“Is that a right decisions ?”
I am wonder, if I go again, will I go back as a good person, or end up without get back any longer ?

Seeing on how my dad handle mom is kinda sad me, also scare me as well.
When my mom scream, all my dad do is also scream back, which I know that is not a solutions as well.

There is so many things that make me afraid, and I dont even know which ways should I make and take to make things feel better as well.
I do love stay in home, but doing nothing, seeing mom, its stress me out.
And leave mom with dad, is that a right solutions too ?

Alzheimer desease, make me feel like losing my mom slowly.
My mental health is not longer with me, and sometimes my feeling even betray me as well.

1 day left before I go to Bangkok, without any certainty, and a hope that I can earn well every Monday – Friday, am I gonna survive it as well ?
Just want to believe that everything good will happen, and all bad things will be wash out.

So, I think the best things that I can do is just like let it be and do what I can do. The result is let see what gonna happen, because I not even sure about my future, but I do believe that God has been prepare my future and that is not a promise, but certainty.

There is many path to be pass, and all I can hope is all the path will lead me to a good and bright future.