Keep Losing Everything

So, here I am , losing everything in forex, AKA Gold trading which I lend money and using it without think about it. Life is seem like never change for me if I keep doing it that ways.

Now I only had a cash, which is 2000bath and 100.000 riel in pocket, and my bank is empty. I not even pay the MCF yet, which I think they gonna come home sooner or later.
So, what is the plan for the next ?

Nobody really know, but as for now, just wanna spend the day by working, reaching target and really, if I need to change, I need to stop doing what I am doing , especially stop being a greedy trader as well.

There is only 5 time left to get salary $1200, and the rest is I need to choose myself, which way I wanna do and go. If I want my life to change, then the good things is I change the things that I do, which I believe that I can.

Another things that I wanna do is, I really want to bring this keyboard back home with me. I wanna give it to another, but I just want to bring it home because, I think I loving it !

Wish this one will long last until I reach back home as well.