I Dont Want to Regret

It was so hard to reach the target, and all my client is just an asshole.
So, somehow I decided to buy a gold and I earn $300+ bit today, and I wish that I am not and being greedy that make me lose it all again and again.

Even only with 0.01 for gold, I can make $300+
Now the mind I being better, why should I use a big lot, when the small one can help me ?
Greedy sure kill everything, isnt it ?

Calling mom, watching, visiting some cafe and chill.
Make a video, make a memory, try to work my best, being professional ?
I just wish that I didnt make any problem, pay off my debts and live a bit better each day.

There is only 5 month salary left, If I am not be wise and keep do a stupid and greedy things, then there is not gonna a way out, and I really didnt want it.
Nobody know anything about future, while we are in it, work as hard as we can, so there is no any regret,

I cant change what I do wrong in the past, but i truly want to believe that there is always a future.
God plan is not a promise, but it was a certainty !
Never, ever, turn off from God.

God is good, and will always remain same.
No matter what situations I am in, I truly believe that God had his own plan for me.

Since I had $300, I also do greedy again and put 0.1 gold sell with a mindset that if I lost all $300, all is OK. Haha…
So, the problem is not about my life, it is about I am the one that destroy my life by greedy and stuff like that.

So, there is still no client, and there is nothing I can do about it.
Boring, lazy, just spend money everyday and let time goes by.
Putting sell 0.1 gold with only $300 and with hope to get $1000 is another level of craziness, isnt it ?

At some case, I deep down know it would be MC again. LOL
So, whatever it is, let it be then.
Do I actually care ?
I am not even thinking about it.

Try to fix my life, meskipun tidak sempurna, minimal sudah berusaha jadi lebih baik walau terus dihancurkan sendiri.
How far can I go with that ?