The second day I am coming here, I am lose all I had, and I made it with some 80 then lose it again. And somehow I made it into 100 and lose it, again.
And now I only had 25, and asking any person but there is nobody that will gonna help me anymore.
I am not dare call home, because I know debt col will come and terror my parent, which is I am sad.
I am work like this, which is also sad to be honest.
Feel so ashame, disappointed in me, lonely and still breathing somehow.
Fenny being so kind, and Merry also the same.
Diana block me, it sad but I promises to myself, that I not gonna ask for help anymore.
I must promise myself and I must keep that promise, that is how I am gonna change my life as well.
I send the text for asking help before 7pm, and made a promises that I wouldnt ask to borrow anymore since today.
Its 25 left, and I wish that I can sell candle well.
If my last 25 gone, then I just think everything is done and that is all.
Whatever happen, I just let it happen.
I wouldnt ask anyone about borrowing anymore, and may God bless everything that I am doing.
Nobody to ask anymore, and may bless all the ways into the end.
