Its been day 3 since I am left home and day 2 since I am starting to work as well.
I dont know what might happen to me, but I already give up my passport and received my flight money back.
With this 100$ in cash, I must survive for the 45 days starting from now.
I upload some story, also the food and other stuff, and some people sending me DM, asking where I am going.
Deep down, I know they’re asking not because they are care, but because they just wanna know how far my life goes, and I decided not to reply.
I dont tell them where I am going, because all I know is that people will only judge me. Did they care ?
Well, everyone think that I am useless and a beggar, and coming here, I just wish to fix my life and can be a better future, even what I am doing is wrong, but I am working hard on it.
I dont know how dad and bro treat mom as well, but I do hope that mom is still ok and get healthy.
I miss her, but I also need to survive, which is hard right now to do both, and by decided to go there, is mean I cant going back too.
In my hardness, I am also the one who paying daily salary to Ali, the person that want to help looking at mom when I was away. I just wish I can keep doing so, paying all my debts and start over again my life and be better in future as well.
I dont know how I am gonna end this month, and what is gonna happen in the future too.
Fenny being really kind to me, and Doklas also help me, a lot, which I dont wishing for.
So, right now, all I can do is work hard for 12 hours a day, and can work well.
What is gonna happen next ?
I am already walking this far, and there is also no going back.
I believe that whatever happen in my life, its what God plan for me.
If there is good, then it will happen.
And if there is not, then I just need to see for the better things to do, and may God bless the rest of my life.
