Another Week Left

Life is always full of suprise, wouldnt you agree to it ?
Spending Sunday by deciding going to coffee shop to sit and think, I meet Benny, the man that I beg a lot before and in the past to get some help.

Just a little smile, and then all is done.
I didnt expect to see him, but since there is not a expected things and momment, I am glad that I can see him in my bit better version as well.

Another 1 week to spend in hometown before leaving, even my mom is not doing really well, I just buy ticket and decided to go. I dont even know what I am going to do in there, but I just like run aways because I want to keep sane, not because I didnt love my mom.

Is the work gonna resume, and how sure I can be to join again and repeat what I do before ?
Working 8 month, I think my result is good enough. Why do I being good in a job that I hate the most ?
Since I am a writer, or maybe because I am lonely enough and need someone to talk with ?

I have no idea about what is my future gona be.
I dont even sure, what do I do is right or not at all.
What I been thinking ?
I am not sure anymore about anything, just like passing day, wishing everything can be good.

I also didnt know why I stil talking with GC, which I know she already had boyfriend, and not sure why I still care about it. And plan to give her my card ? Am I about to do something very stupid and regret later, or is that a right things to do ?

She often sending me picture, well sometimes not really talking with me and only read the text as well.
I am wonder, what do she want, despite of what happen when we working and despite on how she lies to me in some things that I know but pretend that I didnt know as well.

Can I survive in Bangkok and do well ?
How many day of visa that I gonna get ?
Can I pass immigrations without problem ?
I am wondering, but I dont want to be scare at all.

Back home like this, I feel like something missing in me.
Maybe my soul is not prepare in there anymore ?
Maybe I am enjoying my new life very much, that I start to forget my daily and sadly life in this town ?

If you ask me, or if I ask my own self about what is my plan in Bangkok, I totally doesnt have any idea.