Fake Kindness ?

Today, I finally text her and ask her if she was ok, and she say “‘hm”, so I just put emoji in it. She change table into very very far aways, and I ask A to change my sit, and he say I can change in a few day. D didnt come yet, and she not sending me any client as well. So, is she mad at me, or if she really didnt want to be friend and talk with me any longer ?

I think sooner, this company will change into hotel trade. Because almost all of them now change into it.
Today, maybe will go out with Meng, even it was fishy when I offer him 50k riel or go out for drink with me.
So, I think is this a fake kindness to trap me ?

I will not saying anything because the best things is not say anything at all as well. She not pick my number, not even 1 time. So, after the are you okay and hmm, I think the best ways is just see her and forget her and back country.

Did this Meng gonna be another fake person ?
I need to be more clever and think it over before take any actions.

Hi little drunk me that feeling not well. How are you ?
Right now you know she ignore you and skip your number for maybe 2 day in row. Is something happen again, because all I know is just I am not talking and do anything with her.

In this rate, I think the right and best thing to do is ignore her. Maybe she is not good for me, and all I need to do is okay, you can text me or you can ignore me, like that. Why should I care and torture myself to think about someone who ignore me, and hate me without reason ?
Whatever happen, wish I can back into my life and be better. Sleep a lot.

Today was pass, she really not pick my number at all.
Well, at least her profile picture is return, mean she is alright, wish soo. I will try less care day and day. What gonna happen next, now I am wondering. Where the boss gonna put me ? I think in same point, Lyn and husband will go back first ? I dont know what, but I just wish that I can survive here and do my best in here as well.

Another day pass, since the day that I sending deposit and start to pay some debt, now I face the fact that another $230 is gone again in forex. After earn about $200 and now it was also gone as well.
If things keep going on like this, I am wonder if I can back home and become a new me like I planning to.

Another $230 gone because gold really going up. and all I left behind is just cash that less than $200.
Isnt life is so boring without forex to be watched ?
Should I keep doing that and keep losing all the money, or work as hard as I can as scammer and earn and pay bit by bit ?

Somehow, I think start for now she not gonna pick my number anymore. So, now I just wanna make out my life.
Should I put $100 in it, or I just forget it and wait until salary ?
If I lost another $100, well, all best I can do is waiting salary to come.

Even I ever try with $30 only, I already let forex ruin my life for 5 years, and now already new years.
I gonna make out of it, or keep live in it ?

That is a big deal and questions to be answer. Like what I think, she is 100% didnt pick my number at all.
So, as a grow up, I wanna delete her but I didnt think to do it as well. I already did my part and asking her, but she seem didnt want to talk with me anymore.

Without me knowing why, and all I need to do is respect her decisions as well, am I ?
So, it is what it is, what can I do about it ? 3 day now, she avoid and didnt pick me at all. There is a things that sometimes is more better to not be said, rather than say it and regret and hurt ourself as well.

So, I think all I want right now is just ignore her and plan my ways to do and be better. Keep believing in what is good will be done, and what is bad will be pass. If someone and something mean to be for us, it will mean to be, isnt it ?