Greedy that May Kill Me

Seem like salary only last 1 day because if I make a mistake, I will end up losing $600 which is like half of my salary this month.
Again and again, I think my life is like a joke for now.

I know I being greedy and didnt think well. Also when I want to keep making more for paying my debt, deep down I just went into a blackhole that killing me slowly from the inside. Am I gonna losing all $600 again today ?
If I does, then I will stop trade again until salary day, which luck for me, I already pay the motobike rent and just some rent as well.

Today, will try to reduce my talk with GC, since I think her bf not coming to work ? Since I dont know anything, I just pray that I can be myself and keep doing well. I dont know what my future gonna be, since I am the only one who is here. Come alone, back alone.

Today, not talking with the Indo that sit beside me, and I dont know why D change her place but it was good actually. Right now, all I wish is that my $600 didnt go anywhere, and wish Timin can be trusted to help GC sending USDT to MMK.

Well, I dont even know why I help her even after I know she had a BF and maybe only using me for her own purpose as well. Seeing the BF visiting her, and she visiting him is make me not comfortable and I dont even know why.

As per today, seeing her keep saying A and do B is also make me feel a little weird but lets see how far I can catch up with that shit. Right now, just wish that I didnt lost my all $600 because it is a ton of hard work that I do. I mean it. Must be thankful the money not gone when I wake up since I left it like that. I fall asleep pretty fast, more than I expected.