Mom get alzheimer, dementia in old people.
Sometimes, she is good, and many time she is not.
Dad always mad about her, its kinda sad.
Its sad, and full of pain in my chest.
Mom love to get out from home.
It was sad because now I am only had a motorcycle.
I want to make her happy,
I am so late to realize what I have until everything is gone.
I regret a lot,
I cant turn back the time that already passed by.
I try to move foward,
with a lot of regret, without any support anymore.
I am ashame, I hate myself.
I am wonder,
Why God still love me much and protect me ?
Look at mom that being old by time,
Look at mom who cant do anything but still want to protect her child.
Look at mom, who keep being sane and support me.
Why I am about to giving up ?
Ruin my own life, didnt know how to fix it.
Gonna go a long way, with a hope for a new fresh and new page of life.
Am I do it wrong,
Am I do it right ?
Take every consequences, I try really hard to forgive myself.
