Mother love ?
We often hear about that one, but not all of us really know what the real mean of that word. Me too, after I really in my age to be a “Mother” then I realize that Mother love is talk about unconditional love for us.
There is no home without mom inside.
There is a true love who come from mom.
“Little story I would like to share in this post, I made this one because I really realize what the truly happiness in my life.” -DShanz
When I was a kid,
I always like and love to help my mother.
Help her selling a stuff, help her in the kitchen, cleaning a house and I always like to follow her wherever she go. and would really cry if she not taking me with her.
I always listen to her,
Yeah, my mom kinda like my superhero for me that time.
I always ask many thing to her.
I cry if she not buying stuff for me, and I mad when she not fulfill everything I needed. Instead I being a selfish kid in my age because I kinda lose daddy figure on my life.
My mom working day and night just to make sure I can eat 3 times like other kid and going to school too.
I grew up and I learn that I must be a strong woman to face the world, and never trust in man.
Times goes so fastly,
I am a adult who graduate from senior high school, many lies, many bad things I started to keep it away from my mom.
I became someone who not trust my mom to sharing my secret, why ?
Because I scared she would be mad.
We often fight for a simple things, and everytime I hate her, I going out from home and go somewhere without thinking about her.
I went home late, I started my job and to be honest in this momment, I never think and realize that more I became an a adult, she growing more older, and of course, she not strong as she is young. and I never really realize it.
All I know and care is about my world, how to make my self be better, and how to build my future.
In that momment,
I also realize that all I need is how I can be strong enough to face the world by myself and without any help from other, include my mom.
So, I never talk anything with her anymore.
I made my self cleary busy.
I went home for shower and sleep. and yeah, I never give her my time for talking anything, or even for listen her story too.
And all she do is still taking care of me, make me a breakfast and always watching me go to work.
I also never tell her what kind of work I do because all I know is when I started to talk with her, she wont understand and its just waste my time.
I better spending my time for my world. my hobby and my friend.
In one night, there is a call that telling me my mom sick, without any sign and all I always know is she is oke and healty.
Now she is sick and that night, I dont know why, I leave my friend and back home with super speed. I also do not know why I feel so worry and sad on my way.
I am home and went to hospital with her, and my heart is feel so hurt when I saw her really sick beside me.
I never know how long she feel that way because I never made my time for her.
and the amazing things I know when I was on hospital in day 4 night.
She look like not had a chance to live like normally anymore but she always said one word for me with her lower voice.
She look deeply in my eyes and tell me to be a kind kid. to be kind and good. and she repeat it more than ten times with tears falling down on her cheek.
it feels like she gonna go and left me forever. and I starting to cry.
In that momment I really realize, that no matter how bad ass I am as a kid,
All she thinking is me all the time.
She not thinking about herself, but all she think it was me.
She worry all the time when I am too busy worry about myself.
She trying to understand me and never want to make me uncomfortable with her question, so she keep every question inside her mind and self. and that make her sick.
When day 8 and she start to wake up from her coma,
She wish in my ears and say to me for taking her out from hospital.
Not because she already feel well,
It’s because she didn’t want us to spend a lot of money for her.
Can you imagine that ??
And for the first time in my life time.
I know and realize that all I scared the most is not about losing my job, losing my dream,
But all I scared the most is losing my mom.
Like symphony on life, mother will support you and make everything on you look great without you realize it.
Mom is the one who never leave you when you fall,
When everyone leaving you, she still there to help you walk again.
When your friend not care about you, she still care.
When your boyfriend or girlfriend not love you anymore, she still love you.
Where we are when we are too busy on our world ?
We put our mother behind us. and all we care is our world.
Its never too late to make ourself realize that the most impotant things in our life is not about finding our happiness, but keep our happiness.
How we try to keep another love and never try to keep a pureness love from our mom ?Mother love never faded away no matter how we not accept it, or no matter even we dont care.
She still care.
On her lifetime there is always us in every mother heart.
She pretend everything oke when she is not just to make sure we dont worry,
She eat 1/4 and give us 3/4 of food without any excuse, and she always said like
“I am already eat before you.”
and trust me, she is not !
She always fight and argue with us, and at least she always be the one who say sorry in the end of day.
She always thinking about us, and careless about her own self.–
Love your mother because you never find a real and pureness love like mother love.
