Day by day passed,
I wish that I could do better.
It is a deep sorrow,
It is a deep sadness and madness.
Can’t talk about it,
Didn’t want to tell everyone about how I really feel.
I am mess, I am falling and I don’t know what to do anymore.
Too tired to continue this life.
Keep thinking, keep regreting.
I know that I can’t change the past, I should move foward.
But, everytime is the same.
I am never learn and keep doing the same mistake.
I hate myself,
Much and more everyday.
Wanna end it all,
Didn’t know where to start anymore.
Sometimes, the light come into me.
I can be spirit and ready to start all over again.
Everytime I look back, the guilt feeling start to follow me again.
I want to get rid all of it.
I want to make a better life.
On this 30, everything is falling.
It is hard to get into this number.
Should I giving up right now ?
Should I stop trying and let what happen be happen ?
No ! I don’t want it and I want to make it more good than now.
I keep feel the guilt,
I keep feel stupid and mad to myself.
It won’t help me change the past.
It won’t help me move foward too.
Let it go.
Let it go…
I should be better, I should learn !
It is a hard punch to my face.
Now, I am ready to start it all over again.
This time, will be the last chances !
