Wondering alone, thinking about the past.
What happen if that never happen ?
Everything will be normal ? Everything will be OK ?
Then, didn’t fix it but make another same mistake again.
Wondering and thinking deeper and deeper.
Life supposed to be happy and beauty.
What kind of happy that I want ?
What kind of beauty that I need ?
What I am really need after this very long ride ?
Didn’t create a future, I just burn it all down in the ground.
Didn’t know what to say and how to think, all the regret and madness keep inside the heart.
A mind want to be heal, but the heart just feel empty.
Looking at the mess that I create, didn’t know how to fix it and make it right.
Didn’t want to betray my heart anymore,
Didn’t want to care about other anymore,
Didn’t need people around me, didn’t need to apology for the problem that I may make,
Even it was a sickness, even it was a mistake.
Just tired about all of it and wanted it to stop.
Try and try even it was hard.
Push myself to stop when it all just wrong.
I may fix the future and be better, even I can’t stop the problem that already waiting for me.
I just want to be better, I just want to be normal.
I miss my normal day, without worries, without problem and just peace.
A quiet day to drink a coffee and watch a movie.
