Sitting in the left table, listen a random music and enjoy the glass of latte.
Order some ice water, waiting my doctor come and do some visit.
The headache didn’t go, even I already drink some coffee to make it feel better.
My blood goes down, because stress and a lot of problem lately.
Didn’t know what to do or what to believe, there is a lot of problem that going on in there.
Everyday, like there is no peace anymore in my place.
Keep doing my best in job, but there is always a problem in other people eyes.
One little mistake, ruin all the best thing that I already build.
Try so hard to keep doing right, but there is always a mistake.
Try so hard to keep staying, but there is a lot of reason to leave.
Try so damn hard to smile, but there is always something that ruin my day.
Try pretty damn hard to be myself, but I just lost my self in time.
There is one person that come in this place, the person that totally stranger for me.
The person that I started to spend my day with her, the person that I didn’t know what she like inside.
Looking close and I know that there is something going on.
Looking closer and I know she may hide something.
Keep be friend, keep do something together while spending time in nowhere.
But there is come the time when she stab me in my back.
The morning then come, the coffee still hot.
Keep talking and never end our little conversasion.
Keep looking what is good and find the true that it just fine.
Laugh on my little dream that I really know it wouldn’t happen.
It wouldn’t bring any good in future.
A friend that become enemy,
A person that become stranger,
A girl that become more complicated,
A woman that can stab me and let me bleed to death.
Make some plan, the plan that I would do it sooner.
Maybe it is the best, maybe it can be worse.
At least, I know that I already try.
Try to stay, try to be strong.
Try to patient, try to didn’t listen.
But…
It’s just not working well.
Didn’t want to blame myself when I am staying.
Didn’t want to regret when I getting older.
Didn’t want to choose this life, but there is always a choices.
Just need to plan it well and make it happen.
Because life always give us a lot of choices.
