Sunday, Life and Thankful

Since I hurt my leg, I didnt go anywhere far. Beside, everything is expensive for the tour, and since I already buy my laptop after 3 years without it, I think I can only stay all day in hotel.

I really didnt had any idea, just go for 1 week and I worried about my mom.
I wanna back home, but I also had no idea about what I need to do next.
Should I keep explore and write everything down ?

When the first time I back to Pekanbaru, I think my life gonna be over when I keep losing my money.
I beg for some people, and there is only Merry that really help me that time.
And from 18, I dont know but I making it more better.

I kmow that I need to be wise, and today I went to buy ring that I always wanted, and earing.
I buy some other stuff, eat well and go buy meds for my ankle and foot as well.
Deep down, I try to feel happy and keep seeing myself in the mirror.

Having no idea, didnt know should I be back home or not, I just pass everyday again and again, over and over again.
Staying in same place, planning to have a tour, I hope I can be a good trader and not greedy next week.
Need to make $100 and wish I can do that as well.

Mom suffering Alzheimer Desease, and I feel very bad when all I do is travelling and seem like I didnt care at all as well.
I dont know, I really want to be with mom, but I also scare what happen to me if I back later.

I just want to let time pass and even I dont know what to do and what is waiting for me, I believe that God already had a plan for me.

One things that I learn is that life can change in the ways that we didnt expecting it.
Can change within a second, and wherever we are, there is nothing permanent.
Good can be bad, bad can change to good.
The point is, just keep doing your best, and let God guide you to His directions.

Since there is a lot of things happen in my life, in a ways that I cant explain. One things for sure and I know it very well is that God lead my ways in the ways that I never expecting it.
He never late to help me, in the momment that I think life will be end.

So, always be thankful for everything.
Good or bad, even it was hurt, God plan is never wrong and its happen in a ways that you never expect.