Everything Had Reason

Day passed, I didnt see mao2 and Lyn as well anymore in here. I text whatsapp to Lyn, and she not reply yet. Is she go back Indonesia, or just taking home or medical check up and comeback later.
She not pick me again, today and for many other day, and I think there is the end of out friendship, maybe forever ? I dont know yet, but its seem like that. What I can do then ?

I had no friend, I didnt had anyone that I can trust, and all I had is only my 4k bath in my pocket, nothing more, nothing less. Not even a money in my bank account as well. So I decided to make a living, by playing some Khmer, Myanmar, Chiness, English song in here before went back. And if there is a complain, I think the best things is not play anything at all any longer. Wish I can be and stand alone as well.

Like what I think, she not gonna push any client for me anymore since there is a lot of link. We not talk, and what gonna happen next, I am wondering. Maybe, if we still not talk until the day I went back, the best things to do is I will delete her contact after done here. Lyn and Mao2 also going somewhere, I think. I didnt know, and I delete the text when I ask.

Not in a good relations, and I need to be survive alone. What gonna happen next ?
Nobody really know anything, arent they ? Today, Avery asking me to go out and we will buy some bikini. Thanks God, when I cannot exchange Bath into IDR, everything happen for the good ’cause. If I do that, maybe today I really had no money anymore.

Today was a shock day for me, when I think all my happiness is done,
The gay is BACK, in a ways that I am not expecting as well. After I think he gone gone like gone, he just comeback here again, and yes, this is what it is.

All is back to, what the hell is happenning right now ? So, the more talking man is was here and back, while me feeling more than happy when I think he is gone gone. What is the best ways to get rid of that things ? I need to prepare myself again, so I will not think and feel about it any longer.

What the hell is really happening ? My ease of problem now back, and my mood is running again. Whatever it is, lets pretend like he is never exist anymore, and pretend that I am not seeing him, like a ghost for real. I will 100% not talking with him anymore. And pretend that I didnt see him is the best things to do as well. OMG Shit !!! And oh Shit !
I punch wrong, and make emoji in that nita posting and quickly delete it, Hope she not seeing it, because it would be another drama to be deal with again. And I really hate it for real, this time.

Now all I can do is back to talk to myself, keep all feeling inside and try my very best to ignore him, for real. Just wanna focus in my life, and if I can say, almost all khmer and some people visiting him there as well. Like just see someone new and important back. What is really happen today ?

I need to keep focus, and I dont think I can focus at all today. Lets try the best for it then, because that is the only decisions that I had.
At this point, I come to realize that there is no ways that she gonna pick my number any longer. and that trash even coming back.

What is the best things, did he beg, asking Anjing to help him back to work, or things like that ?
Well, IF SOMEONE CHANGE BECAUSE OF ONE PERSON, THEY ARE NOT DESERVE MY FRIENDSHIP. AND LET THEM SEE THAT THEY ARE NOT AFFECTING ME AS WELL.

I am strong, and I will always be strong as I am. Because there is already a lot of new receptionist, and accept him without any conditions or beg its seem like impossible as well.
So, maintance the I dont care, and think it was like nothing as well. Just some of the month to be passed, and in this rate, I think sit in where I am right now is the best sit that I can have. Wish I can work well, make well and back home as the new person as I am. STICK TO THE DAMN PLAN !

Like what I am already know, she will keep avoid my number until I am done here.
Last night, I pass and see her, and we not say any word too. I think the best things to do is do nothing, After the gay back, and the person that I am interest with avoid my number in work and not talking with me, I think the best things is self healing like how I do when I fight with Avery.

Yesterday, we go out together and but a bra, which I think my number is 32. xD
Still had some cash, wish I can survive it until I got my comissions.

Night walk, night air and try to enjoy some life before went back. Where is Lyn going ?
I know she will be back, so… I just wish all is well.