After some smooth landing in Cambodia, starting the work and now is about 3 day passed.
I am still trying to get to use to be in this work, and I am keep repea the circle, like something that never be end.
Am I never get out from it, or it is how I am ending my life ?
I am losing my very last 280$, then this morning I am losing another 80$.
While in here, I am still keep asking a help and now is about to lose my all in 100$.
No, even I dont know what I am made for, and I really tired of everything that happen in my life.
The debt collector come home, which make me sad because I am look like a useless child.
Have a lot of debts, and now working like this, I dont even know where my life gonna be.
Thinking about end it, but I also dont dare enough to doing that.
I and Lyn didnt talk a lot, and she so often get into tense when I am asking something and else. So, I decided not to really talk with her, and try to carry on in everything that I am doing here.
Am I gonna make it out, because beside Merry and Fenny, I really cant ask anyone for help anymore.
So, whatever that gonna happen from now, I just want to try my best to keep alive, until the day that I cant anymore.
Living here alone, with my myanmar roommate, I wish nothing but I can do well.
Wish there is only us 2 in the room as well.
Learn to not depend on people, and try my best to fix my whole broken life.
What is gonna happen starting now ?
Back work and seem that I am losing my $100 ?
