Its Monday, again.
And I making the same mistake, again.
Which make me come to this place and start over everything again.
Well, I keep losing my money in FX, and I am so hate myself right now.
The one who talking care of mom is also rude and saying that she didnt want to come anymore.
At first, I just reply it nicely, but the more I listen, the more she saying things that are bad, and I kinda hate it.
I decided not to reply anymore, and that is how the relations end.
Living in here, in the rainy day.
I am wonder, how is mom and dad doing ?
Losing all my money and ruin my own future, I am alive but I am not feel like living.
I am trying to make things right, but turn out, I am just keep making it worse.
Today also the first day my friend, Ceba helping me selling candle in 1 week event, and I wish that they can sell well, so I can pay my motor and internet on time.
I hate myself, and I am trying to live on it.
I wish that my 80 can survive, but selling gold and losing everything in it, well.
I should take the profit but I just not do it and make things worse and now I may already lose it all.
So, just want to work and try to fix all the mistake that I am done.
