Sitting here, like I always do.
What make it different this time ?
Feel ashame, feel good ?
I dont know how to feel anymore.
Missing mom, wishing her all the good.
Didnt know what she been doing, didnt know how people treat her.
Wishing her for all the goodness,
Wishing for all the best when I am back in future time.
Caunting the day, its so long to be passed.
Living alone right now, working to make a living.
Working real hard, when everyone think it was wrong.
Trying hard to prove myself, trying hard to make things right.
Dont care about what people gonna say,
Didnt want to beg and keep asking for help.
Ruin my own life, and still alive until today.
God really love me, and He never leave me.
Trying my best to survive this life,
Didnt have any purpose in life anymore.
So tired, drain into nothing.
Keep breathing, keep trying to fix things.
What is gonna happen next ?
12 hours, become a different person.
I been thinking, what I am doing ?
They say I am wrong,
But, they treat me more better than in my owns country.
Dont expect anything next,
Also dont know what might happen later.
Just keep doing what I can do,
Wishing the great day will come.
Wishing mom and dad with a great health.
I am wonder,
How long can I keep living ?
Am I do it wrong,
or, it might be the way to fix my wrong doing this whole time ?
