Its August already, never imagine I am stepping into this month and still have my both parent.
Not easy, a lot of tears, and depression and suicided tough, but I am still here, writing and hoping a chance to start over something.
I meet again with my old friend, Lyn.
Not meet in face but we start to chat, not a lot but better.
Well, I wanna join her into working even its make some sins, and I try to catch up with the ticket price and wishing that I can pass imigrations too.
I am about to left mom, since I know dad will not approved what I am about to do if I saying that honestly.
But, living like this is not a solutions too.
Since I have nothing to lose anymore, I think that there is nothing wrong to give it a try, at least once or 6 month at minimun.
I dont know what work it was, I am not good at Mandarin language either.
But, I want to learn and have a high hope that I can fix many things.
I have nothing to lose anymore, and I really wish everything gonna be OK by that.
I am only can afford going ticket, wish a hope that I can pass the check point.
I have nothing more and if I get deported before I can see foot in Cambodia ?
Oh, I dont know, dont wanna think the worse and hope for the good.
Since its the only way and there is look like green light, I really want to give it a chance and trying it.
I dont know how but as long as it was good to me, there is gonna be a way for me.
Whatever happen next, I believe everything is for the best.
May God bless all the way until the very end.
