Its been kinda long time since the last time I am write about my day. Why ? Because everyting is just the same like before. Nothing new, nothing change. It may a matter of time when I can keep my phone with me too.
Losing all purpose of life, looking at my old parent. I am so ashame of who I am become, and I hate every part of me. I am losing purpose of life just for a little money, and I torture myself endlessly because I cant love myself anymore.
The loan will come to date, can I even pay for it ?
I am wonder, keeping alive until today is so tired and all I do is watching, write and hope that I can get income from what I am write.
What my future is gonna be ?
My uncle family hate me, my ako hate me, and I have no friend to ask around anymore too.
Wanna go somewhere, but I dont have money at all.
Wishing August I can get some event, wishing that I can be wise enough to make things better, I am so tired to be greedy and ruining everything. Build it slowly, build it slowly, and trust everything in God plan.
I am alone and I cant turn into anyone else anymore.
Wish this 50$, a lot of loan and debts, jobless and poornesss, where my future gonna take me ?
