Well, its just only 2 week and everything back into the beginning circle, same old new, from almost halkf of target become zero and repeat the circle and begging. Is it what it is gonna be ?
I am losing all the sense of life right now.
A lot of mistake that I dont even know how to fix it, anymore.
Keep asking the same people, get rejected and make everyone mad, I am so ashame about me.
Finally can buy the phone that I wanted, and now I am about to sell it, again ?
Even my uncle and his kid doesnt want to hear from me anymore, apalagi helping me out.
I know I am such a mess, and I just hate everything in me, I hate everything and there is nothing more than word to describe what I truly feel right now.
Some friend become rude, some just silent and read, and the other ?
I dont know what they’re been thinking but, I know they may look very down on me right now.
My dad say, why I am living like this ? Like hell I want to live like this.
I just dont know that I am already drown this far, and I hate everything on me, everything.
Asking, begging, I am so done with it.
And when I decided to sell my phone, I know what bro gonna say, nothing good will come out from his mouth too.
Also the loan that due sooner, the daily food.
It may easy for other people, and it is like living hell for me.
What is next, I am wonder.
Its true, its only 2 week of peace and I am ruining everything in the end. Back to what I am use to be, and its just like a never end circle until, I am going to suicided ?
I am wonder …
