How I am today ? Still surviving.
Brother word and chat is so rude, sending me some text and say that may I get some idea to trick other people money, or should I say fraud and scam ?
He always say that I am already spend all Ako money, which is hurt the most. The other people come for rescue, while the family keep judge everything that I am do. If there is some reason why I am ending my life, it would be come from the family.
My mom is the main reason why I keep and try to surviving. I hate everything that I am doing, but I cant say it out loud. More I try, more I sink. And there come some event next week, which I hope that I can get some money to pay the rent and eat.
Begging people for some help, I never doing that before and since I got into this mess, its change me into a pityful people. Jobless, still write in web that will be gone sooner, and do nothing except thinking how my life will end.
I can say that I am lucky enough because I have a friend to share in event, with the hope that we get in, and with the hope that I can sell well too in it. Am I shy become this kind of human ?
I am ashame and its hard even for breathing, and I just happen to still alive.
So, what gonna happen next ?
I am ashame of my life, I have no friend, and each day I pray to God that I want to surviving. I want to have a usefull life, and I believe that one day I can be a inpirasion for other people. I know that I will overcome all of this.
Well, some people block me because I am annoyed. Asking and begging help before, but I just wish that one day, I can show up in a better place and do better. Life is like a wheel. Dont wait a years, a month, a day. Because everything can change in second.
Keep surviving, be grateful to still alive.
Because, today is unknow, yesterday is passed and tomorrow is yet to come.
I will overcome all of this.
