Isnt it something, when the website still on and I can write here ?
I only have 2k in pocket, and there is clear that nobody will help me anymore. Ako want to telling dad, which I know it will hurt him more and more.
Begging Anson, he just ghost me. Quang Ming also dont want to read any my text anymore, and Armi say she cant help me anymore too. Isnt this the end ?
But, I want to live on, and I dont know how, because there is no human that will help me.
Maybe, is this the very end ? I am tired, but I always pray and hope to be strong so I can live on.
Having no job, a lot of debts… I want to text Ako again but I am really scare about that. I wish nothing but some miracle to keep living on.
How its gonna end then ?
I stole 100k from dad pocket, ride as far as I can, delete everything that I am never exist, and kill myself then ?
Or I going to hotel, kill myself there ?
Or, I drink morer pill and kill myself in my own room ?
Which one is more dramatic and horror ?
I dont know, deat God…
I am in the end of everything, and I am really hate myself more than anything.
So, I sending the last text to Ako, begging her for the last time. Not hope anything anymore too.
Whatever happen, let it happen then.
This website will be gone soon too, so, this suicided note will be gone too.
What I love, what I feel.
I write everything down here, and I am so happy to know that I have a chance to live until this 33 and ruin everything in 5 more years.
