First day in my born month, welcoming May.
What hold in it ? Well, I dont know about it, but lets we find out.
May God bless me and family, may all the best will be follow and lets walk more closer with God.
Yesterday, once again, there is miracle happen. Its not about my strong and power or analys, its about how amazing God helping me in something. And in my lowest, I still manage to help a friend that I know longer but rarely talk and never meet.
The first time when I decided to help is, I think he is like me. I ask random person, some of them I never meet, and so go on, and if there is someone who willing to help, its feel like God really help me with people that I am never meet.
Am I being stupid or what ? No, I am not.
I do the same, or should I say, I am more worse than him actually. And I really hope that this month, everything gonna be much better, so I dont repeat the same circle again and again.
I dot know what guture I might have, but, I jusut wish right now, I have a good health both for me, my parent especially and brother too. And slowly, I also can pay every debt bit by bit, and hope for the understandng of people that help me.
Today is holiday, I dont even know because I am not reading calender like I used before. Back to my tiny room, writing and wacthing some film, hope Saturday might be something good to do, like a little explore ?
May God bless this 2 day left before end of closing market, and wish that I can be wish enough to do a right choices. Because, having a debts is so horror and all I can wish and hope is that I am not repeat the same mistake over and over again.
I wish this 5 year mistake and nightmare will end. May God bless me, help me and giving me peace over everything.
