Hello. Wednesday again there.
Nothing special happen, but everyday, there is always a amazing God that protect me. In Him, there is no harm, and I start to feel little calm than before, each day, bit by bit too.
Everyday, I am simply say something like,
“God, you bring me this far is not to fail. So, please guide me and take responsibility about me. Help me get through my dark time and hardness, for that I can surpass each day.”
Its kinda simple, but its really help me everyday. I have nothing left, I cant count on people, so all I have is God that bring me this far. I live, I write, people saw me like a useless person, because everyday I just share my film and series review, but deep down, I try to working out a lot of things. Not by my own self, because I am really done.
“When my strength end, there is Yours, begin.”
So, I am not hoping a lot of things but I just know that I am gonna make it. How peaceful it is, isnt it ?
Mom and dad getting old day by day, and its look so far to get everything done and make them proud. Mom singing, sleeping, eating. Asking to take her out sometimes. I just wish that I can get some money each day, so at very least, I can take her out, for simple drink or food.
Its also sad me, when there is no car to ride her. The time that I waste, the regret, I know its Satan job to make me feel disappointed of myself, and somehow, I know that there is also strength in God, that I am try very hard to learn and believe.
When I keep doing the same mistake each day, God never leave me. When I am worried to much, he just, never late to help me. I am not a great Christian, but I just a simple girl who keep growing and try to surpass all the mistake that I made. Why I talk about God everyday ?
Because, I am the lucky one. I can experience it.
Sp, its Wednesday. Its almost the end of April and the month that I am born will begin.
I am not gonna stay the same, crying my eyes out and blame everything include myself.
I know and believe that, day by day, even it is just a simple things, a chance happen. I am not gonna push it, and rush it, just try to enjoy every bit of it.
Because in the end, whatever happen, is like God preparing us to be better and to be the great of ourself in future. Time will tell, so do God will give us what we need, when the time is right. Just keep breathing, keep thankful and spend this life doing something good with a simple word and act.
