Who is there, who wasnt ?
Who look down, who ignore me. Who is willing to help in my hardnest time ?
There is a lot to learn, and the only way to reach it is stay alive, witness what God may give us.
Going to church Sunday morning, I kinda like the topic when the opening is like,
“Who is strunggle about financial problem ?”
I like the topic because the main things that pastor trying to say is,
“Stay still, be calm. Let God guide you.”
Menjadi tenang didalam situasi financial yang tidak jelas, masa depan yang tidak ada arah, pekerjaan yang bisa dikatakan menulis dan bercerita. Kalau dilihat dari sisi manusia normal dan lain sebagainya, hidupku ini termaksud kedalam hidup manusia gagal.
Last night, I make decision that I will fix problem bit by bit. I put every single name that I have debts too into my wall, and I know that I will put it out bit by bit. Its not gonna be easy, but I just know that I am gonna be there and make it happen.
I have nothing to lose anymore, and I know deep down, I still have a hope because I am not gonna walk alone this time. Kadang, aku masih meragukan Tuhan, bahkan disaat keadaan begitu menjepit dan putus asa. In the end, I know that God love me, more than I know.
Monday may be scary, but as long as I have God beside me, I know that I am gonna be OK, and I will make it. I learn how to keep calm, keep calm and keep calm. Slowly, surely, I am gonna make it.
Here some today verse that I got from pastor, who telling us to keep calm in our hard time.
“Psalms 46 : 1 – 2”
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea.
“1 Peter 4 : 7”
The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray.
“Isaiah 30 : 15”
In repentance and rest is your salvation. In quietness and trust is your strength.
No matter how bad our situations, no matter how scary the future. When people look down at me, when the satan try to say that I am unworthy, that suicided will end everything. I know, that God will not let that happen.
I wwant to live. I will be the living proof that God love me, no matter how many sins that I am commit, he love me. He love me before, he love me now, he love me forever.
