I am not sleep pretty much, and I am waking up with headache. I try not to drink medicine, and still, after coffee and breakfast, its feel a little dizzy. I think I am gonna get a sleep after lunch.
I buy a chicken, and I thinking about cooking chicken soup. I try to earn bit by bit money, so I can pay people bit by bit too. I also have some deadline in the end of Saturday, wish that I can make it. And also hope that I can still using it.
If I can do it right, I may get some extra but I am also scare that I make it wrong, again.
I know deeply, that there is nobody to ask for help anymore, and all I wish is that I am not making any mistake too.
Its risky but I know that it can help me if I am do it right. I will try it slowly and wish, really wish that I gonna make it. May God bless me from my little things to become big in a patient and hardship. Because, the only one who not leaving me is God.
Nothing more and special for now, but I am sure that now I am trying my best to be better. Every step, every worries, I put everything in God hand. I want to take momo out for some food, I want to keep paying my friend everyday bit by bit. I want to pay my bill on time too.
I wish nothing but a peaceful day with a little that I have. Peaceful day without begging to borrow some again. I dont want to repeat the circle because I know that I am not gonna get the help too.
It was scary, and even I am not sure what is gonna happen in my life next, I am sure that I have a future, and when the time is right, He, the Lord will make it happen. I just need to keep going and do my best. May God work for the rest of it.
