Semua hal bisa berubah dengan cepat, are you believe in it ?
Well, its rainy day and I am about to sleep after I am not sleeping last night. I really wish that I am not drink sleeping pill anymore.
After I am losing everything and try on everyone. I am dare to asking Fenny, again. Also I sending chat to her husband, trying to explain what happen. I never expect anything anymore from her, because I know she already help me more than enough.
And after I am back to home, I know Fenny really help me again, more than I am imagine. Also, Wenny, the person who I am only know when she ask me to help in her anniversary at Minera Lab. I am dare enough to send her DM and she help me.
Other than that ?
Nobody else. No my old friend, no the people that I am help before my hard time. No family, no my ex boss. Nobody except those two.
And also Yenni, she giving me and tell me no need to repay it.
I dont know what is gonna happen, because I remember that my good day never last for week.
I really want to try it and wish this time, I am not going back into the same circle anymore. I really want to have a stable plan, and bit by bit, I can repay everyone.
I am shame enough for this past 5 years. Asking around, beg one person to another. Wishing their help and many things, and I really hope, that I am not gonna back into that circle of life.
Its rainy day, and I really hope I can be wise enough to make every decision. I wish everyone that really help me out, will understand how I feel and been through, so they will be patient and give me a lot of time, until I can pay them back again.
I dont know how, but I believe that somehow, I am gonna do it. I can pass it, and in God mercy, I can win this battle. The strunggle that almost make me take my own life. Thanks God, you keep holding me by my right hand.
I wish, I really wish.
That I can be better and do better.
Dont greedy, just trust in God.
