Wake up in the morning,
Holding my brown doll.
I still remember who give me that,
She is someone who hate me now.
I like her, pretty much.
I care, and I still thinking about her, almost all day.
Its been 3 week now, since the last time I see her.
Its still hurt, pretty much.
I dont know why she change,
I dont know why she is rude and hate me too.
After telling her about my feeling ?
She say, she hestitate to be my friend anymore after I say that I like her.
Why having feeling and care for someone is wrong ?
After the split, she never talk to me anymore.
I try, sending chat, or asking some questions.
She being cold, take more than 12 hours to reply if I am lucky,
or she just read it.
It was sad, it so hurtful.
Everytime I remember how she treat me one month ago, I cry.
Over and over again, like.. I didnt believe it happen.
Why I keep thinking about her, while I know she is happy now ?
I hate my feeling, pretty much.
I hate myself, to have this feeling.
Why I being honest, while I know honesty will only get punishment ?
I keep asking myself, what make her so special ?
The answer is nothing.
I like her, without seeing what her good or bad side.
I accept everything about her, and just 1 mistake, my feeling.
She hate me so much.
If someone really care about you, they wont hurt you.
They wont make you cry, and hate you after that.
It simply mean that you’re nothing for them.
I want to send her birthday wish and gift.
But I am scare, I will hurt myself again if I am doing that.
Feel like I am start all over, when I try really hard to heal my heart.
Decided to buy a ticket.
Fly somewhere nice for a while.
Try hard to forget everything about her,
Try to love myself more and more each day.
