7 Day Back to Country

Day passed, now is my 7 day since the last time I am back to home.
Mom isnt get better, she keep talking a lot, everyday, and it is kinda sad for me.
Still, see like the work not resume yet as well.

I plan to buy ticket to Bangkok, to meet my friend, GC.
But, I dont think she is real and really want to meet me at all.
Are she gonna scam me over and over again ?
What is the purpose of me, that keep talking with her and wanna see her ?

I going for a walk, coming to CFD and eating.
Walking, thinking. and planning about what I am gonna do next.
Am I ready to go travelling ?
Am I take a right choices right now ?

So many things, I am scare but I really want to go somewhere far.
Paying rent, eating outside.
Is flight again without a work and only being a writer is a right choices right now ?
I am wondering, am I gonna end up well, or worse ?

When I leave again, am I gonna be better and success ?
Can I be consistance, and earning $50 – 100 everyday ?
Can I realy make it, I am wondering as well.

Make myself into the work and need to work 1 years again, rather than earning $100 everyday, which one suit me better, and if I really want to make it, can I make it ?
I want to be wise, I want to be a freely writer that can write anything down as my liked.
I wanna to chase what I like, and I do hope that everything can be ok in the end .

About to add 1 more year, which mean I am in the age that adult and old enough to make a better live.
And honest say, my dream seem very hard and scare me, but decided to take a step and trying it is really another level of courage.

Nobody know what is gonna happen next, as per I wish and want, I just really want to reach my dream. At least, I can be a good website writer, in my own website. With a wish that one day, I can earn from it, a honest earning, from my dream job as well.