Wish the Change Before End of Years

When I really give up while asking advance, finally yesterday, 1 hours when work start, he sending it to me, which save me a lot, and I do wish that I can really save up and earn well from now on.

Mom sleeping all day, and today she up and get angry a lot, which make me sad because she not even want to change her diapers, and I know she not even recognize me as well.

I dont know what will happen next, but I do wish that at least I can buy a car and take her around inside the car, fixing the time that I been missing with her, and hope that I can pay off all my debt within the years as well too.

Merry being so kind to me, being the one who help me a lot, in a word that I cannot express and I am so thankful for that. I dont want to lose a friend like that, not because she lend me a lot of money, but because how she care about me.
If she know the truth, would she forgive me ?

3 month left and years will change into 2027, which there is nothing much change, except my mom conditions, which I hope can be better, or maybe will be more worse than never ?

I remember when I was in teens, I always wish that I can had my own room, my own bed.
And God provide it for me in the right time.
So, I do know there is always a ways for me, no matter how bad and how many sins that I make since then.

Nobody really know what will happen, and for that, there is nothing I can do except being thankful for whatever it is, and always think the best for all of it.