Its 8 days left before I am going to work with Lyn, which I trust everything gonna be OK, even I am scare as hell and sad to left mom alone. I dont know what will happen but I just really want to fix my life and wish to be a better person in future.
I am so desperate and I am making a lot of mess by asking people to lend me money every day. Benny totally ignore me, Angel reply and mad at me, Ming didnt answer anything, Carla ignores me and there is only Fenny that really help me, again.
I am so scare because I am not paying my MCF yet, but yesterday feel like a miracle in my life.
My friend ask me to help her selling her broken phone, which I hope that I can get some extra by it, and when I am almost losing hope, there is someone who willing to buy it, and she willing to sell it.
From that, I can get some extra and pay my MCF that already due, and now all I have is this $250, which I hope that I can make some extra so I can pay next month bill first before I am going.
Am I gonna make it, or it is just me, left with my name in this world ?
I already pack my things, and need some item to put in it.
I also have a plan to sending my candle to Ceba, wish she really help me selling it all and wish that when I came back, I can continue selling candle well.
Idk if I am gonna make it or not, if Lyn manipulate me or selling me, but I do trust that, if there is a good things to do and good things for me, God will help me get it. And if that is not, I am not gonna cry out loud, and I will try to look in other side. I wanna be wise and fix my very mess up life to be better.
Leaving mom, didnt have any income and not get a job well because of age and my bad face, trying to make some extra from trade, made some video with a wish that can be monetarize, I really want to have a proper life and make my parent proud.
I really want to fix the life that I am mess so much.
