Its already August 11, and its just 16 day before I am going.
I talk to dad yesterday, and the respon is not good, like I know. I say it was Jakarta, didnt know what happen if I told the truth.
Am I scare ?
I am scare as hell. I hope for somr event, but I just didnt get it until today.
Wishing next week will be a event, but didnt put a high hope about it too.
All I have is $180, and I am still not paying my MCF yet.
I am so done asking Anson, Diana and Angel at this point, and I dare to asking help for Benny, which I am not hope more and less. Getting ignore is always happen and I am so done for it too.
I try to play some slot, with 30k I get 180k and I lose it all, plus I lose my 100k yesterday too.
Deep down, knowing that is the game that I shouldnt play, and I just play when I heard brother being so cruel to mom last night.
What happen when I am really go ?
Are they gonna take a good care for mom ?
If I am being sell out, then I guess that is like suicided.
Everybody scare that I am gone to Cambodia, and all I bad in mind is trust Lyn about it.
To a chance, to fix a mess up life. Am I stupid ? Or I am desperate, or I am hopeless ?
May God show all the good way, because I really about to lose my hope in it.
