Its wonderful, that I still can keep my 200$, and thanks God, even I dont know what might happen next week, I just want to trust everything in God. Its kinda sad, to remember the past, but regreting it again and again wont change anything.
Today is Saturday, I am almost done paying back Julie, and hoping next week I can start to pay other person. Bit by bit, I believe that I can fix it. Slowly, but surely, for sure.
I just hope there is also a event from PAM next month too.
Wishing that I can sell well, wishing that everything can be more better each day.
Its kinda shy, to myself, family and all. Until today, also 4ku didnt reply anything to me, he wont talk to me for the rest of his life ?
There is also some people that block me, one of them is Limin.
I dont know what he been thinking, but he say to not paying it again and that is OK, but still, he change what he say later on, until he now blocking me.
I just wish that I can really do better each day, paying off debts bit by bit, buy a laptop, writing, buy a car and take mom to everywhere. Fix the time that I am broke before. Even it will taking a long time, I know that I am not alone in this fight, and may God bless all the way.
Where to take mom today ?
Somewhere far, somewhere near ?
Asking brother to going out with me is like asking .. I dont know.
I know that I made a lot of mistake, and trying to fix it is not gonna easy and will cost more.
Even it is hard, even it is not easy, I just want to believe that I can do it.
Bit by bit, I wish that I can really had a chance to make my parent proud of me.
