Its Monday again, half July already passed so fastly, the event is end, and I am back into my normal boring life, wishing that I can get some extra from forex and pay off my debts and back to normal, again.
While event, I am not sell pretty well, but its enough and better than nothing. I feat Ceba, which make everyone wonder why we join hand. I helping her and she treat me Sunday dinner, Pan & Co, which I love and like so far. So many people may already gossiping about it too.
I am wonder, what I am do so wrong before, but I decided not to care much about it. If you like me, thank. And if you’re not ? Its OK because all I need right now is God bless and earn money to coming back into my normal life.
Mom is old enough, so is dad too.
I just want, at least fix what I do wrong, and make them proud while God still giving them for me.
I dont know what may happen, but I do wish that I can really make them proud.
So many people hate me, some of them block me and unfriend with me because I am to poor and always beg for help. I only have this 330$, with a lot of loan to pay off too.
I wish, I really wish that I can fix everything, and in silent, I can comeback and be more powerful and wise than before too.
Then, what is gonna happen next ?
I dont know what is waiting on me in next life, but I believe that God hold my future, and everything that happen right now, is because he love me and want to make me to be a better person.
I am scare, I am ashame.
I dont know how to love myself, but he love me more than I know.
So, whatever that gonna happen next, I put it all in God.
Its already half of 2025 passed, and I really wish all the strunggle and pain will be heal and I can become more stronger person in future.
I really wish God lead the way, so I am not giveup in the middle.
