Sitting in the same table and chair,
With a small lamp and hot air,
Looking into a chart,
Wishing that I can go back.
Having headache, keep repeating the same circle.
I am wonder,
When its all gonna end ?
When everything can be back to normal ?
What is normal then ?
Times sure goes fastly,
In the blink of eyes, a lot of time passed.
Keep doing the same, keep trying each day.
I am wonder, what result in the end ?
Old friend say they would stay,
The truth is, they just gone and block me.
I am wonder,
Who am I for them ?
Ruin my whole life,
Still believe that I can make it right.
What is right then ?
What is normal when its get back ?
I should love myself more,
But I end up hate myself much more.
The more I try to fix,
The more I am ruining everything.
People look down at me,
Even me hate myself and not love me much.
I am wonder, why God still love me ?
Is that normal to still alive after I am ruin my life ?
I wish that I can get back to normal,
While I am not even know what is normal anymore.
The circle, the hate and the pain,
Is that normal to keep doing what I am doing now ?
I am wonder,
What is the end of me, who trying real hard to look and be normal.
