Its Friday here, and the first week from July just passed by like that, like nothing happen but the truth is, the first week become a real strunggle for me, because I am repeat the same circle a while and really almost giving up.
I never imagine that Angel and Winda truly help me, once again.
I am asking to much to Angel, and I know deep down she may be hate me more or else. I just hate who I am becoming this far, and I really wish that I can really get a chance to change and be better.
I am talking a lot with Lyn, knowing that I may have oppurtunity to work like her even I cant speak Mandarin well. I just wish that she will really help me, and that I can start a change and fix my life to be better.
I really looking foward for it, and just wish that it may be real, even if I can only try it once.
I realize that in my hard time, nobody is truly care about me anymore. I have nobody, and it just a dream to wish a father good word when I speak and talk about anything. He think I am not good at anything, I cant work well for other and stuff, but the truth is, I will and willing to try my very best to fix my mess life.
I want to keep believe that everything happen in my life is already allowed by God. Its a part of His plan, and everything happen is have a reason, to make me a better person in future.
So, in a meantime, I think the best that I can do is saving up money, pay some loan on time and trying to survive each day.
Yesterday is passed, today is unknow and tomorrow is yet to come.
It may not be easy, but as long as I want to try to survive, I know deep down that I am gonna make it.
Wish this Friday will give me some joy.
