Whatever you do to survive, its called brave.
Is begging for help also become a part of surviving ?
Even my own Ako dont want to help me.
15k in pocket, without knowing what to do. The bike due tomorrow, the website is due and somehow its keep running. If I die, will this website will keep exist ?
I am wonder, and I really dont know what to do anymore.
Why am stll alive ? I drink 4 pill xanax yeesterday, and I am still wake up to face today. Same old day, doing nothing, dont know how to make money and begging ako again ?
I dont think to sending her any text anymore, because once people dont care, they will not.
It Wednesday, I am so wonder why I wanna end my life because of money that less than 110.
I have nothing anymore. No job, no friend. Dont know what to do outside. I am all alone.
Its not shame to ask for help, but when I ask, there is no help at all.
Am I a scammer ?
Am I that worse so nobody will help me anymore ?
Am I that bad so even Ako will not giving me second chances ?
What is the purpose for me to keep alive like this ?
I am wonder, why I am still alive until today ?
Drink a lot of pill since I am a child, dream to be someone better in life.
Ruin my whole life in less than 6 years, jobless and have no friend.
A lot of debts, dont know what to do.
Screaming for help, and nobody was there.
God, why you still love me and save me ?
