Half year been passed, and nothing really going well until today. The news is, I am still breathing and somehow alive. With 25$ along me, and no any other money anymore in my pocket.
I am not paying this website yet, and tomorrow, this site will disappears. I also not yet pay my bike, and maybe they will visit me soon after that. I am dare myself to sending text one again to Ako, but I didnt wish a lot for her to help me.
I mean, even my Ako ignore me, and I know why the other do the same. Especialy for them who didnt know me, I am totally understand.
I cant hope any longer for human help, and I only can pray for God so I can be strong enough.
I really wish that God will sending me someone to help, but I dont wish a lot. I just trust everything gonna be OK, I can pay my bike, I can pay this website, I can pay my debt bit by bit too. I really wish for that, really mean it.
Turning 33, have nothing except debt. Have no job, and only wish this 25$ can help me get through some point of life. Can buy a meal, can pay debt, can take mom somewhere for ice cream. The things that I am not done it before, and become my biggest regret.
Since this website gonna get shutdown for a while, I just wanna let you know that I am OK, if there is still someone care about me outside there. I am OK, because as long as God not leave me, which I know he will never leave me. I am gonna be OK.
A lot can happen in a day, I just wish that I am gonna be OK, with my loser life. May I can do well, and may God bless everything that I am doing. I wish nothing but a chance to fix what I lose with my parent.
I really wanna make them proud of me.
