Feeling good, to be back write my daily here. I am not open computer and I am using simple leyboard with brother tab. My birthday and my brother birthday now passed, and we really got nothing at all.
Since Carrot become the one who saying wish and giving me pizza, also Sumi that sending a wish, I know that I am not have any meaning in people life anymore. Because I am poor, and even my Ako didnt reply my text as well.
I have this 50$, and know what funny things happen today ?
When I start to pay a little by little my friend, who claim to be my bestie but turn out not because I am poor and always try to lend money, she reply my text fast.
I remember when I try to borrow money from her, she just disappears, like I am not texting, until I try to call and begging her. And when its come to me to paying, she wonder what I am doing and reply my text real fast. That is funny.
Nobody really care if we are poor. Am I even exist anymore ?
Since everyone know I have no job and always text just to borrow money everywhere. Even my Ako, who always say, tell her anything as her niece, didnt reply anything at all.
Yesterday, brother ask me a quetions like,
“Do you think something to make money, instead of sitting, playing game and watching drama ?”
I wonder and dont know how to reply because deep down, I hate what I am doing.
Whats gonna happen next, are you wonder ?
I am also wonder about what is waiting for me in next line.
If I cannot make it, then I know that I may not be able to paying MCF and this blog ontime.
I hope that Ako help me last time, and if not. I am only rely my life in God, since I know that nobody really care about me, and I dont want to be a burden to my family too.
I am 33, as a woman, I should know what to do.
Single, jobless, no money, no even beauty.
But, God loves me for who I am and I hope that I am gonna make it better each day.
