Sitting alone in dark room,
Counting the money inside her pocket.
Always give me some of it,
Scare that I dont have money to eat and spend.
Her hair is grey, her eyes become small.
Her spend day by day with scare,
Her spend her old day with worrying.
Using the same cloth, she like to going out.
Every time I look at her, its killed me slowly.
Where am I this whole time ?
Too busy spending time with friend.
She love Sunday, because she know I will take her out.
I am too busy, never make time for her, just a little.
Just taking her outside for lunch in Sunday, she is happy.
Sink in a deep hole of life.
Everyone that I care is gone and only she stay.
She stay, no matter how poor I am.
No matter how disappointed I am.
She is the only one there.
She not great like before, she cant do a lot like before.
The time flies, that I cannot take back.
The time that I regret a lot, but cant chance it too.
I was a fool, and now I try to make it right.
Deep down, its painful.
Its sad, its mad.
Its a regret that I cannot say in word anymore.
But, God is great, God give me a chance to do and try better.
Redeem myself, try my best for her.
I am strunggle, its like a dead end.
But, looking at her.
Sitting alone, talk alone and love me more than I expected.
Even its not a car, and only a bike.
She is happy, she is happy, she is happy.
Its hot, its hard to get in the bike.
But, she is happy.
Its broke my heart, its pain inside.
Its the things that I cannot change, but I can redeem it.
I dont know how, but I really want to give her mybest.
In this down hole, I realize what is valueable in my life.
The life that I hate, the people that I dont care much before.
Become the people that more important in my life.
And I am sure, I am gonna make it right.
I gonna make her happy.
And may God, give me that chance to do it right.
