Nothing special happen. I got a video call from Ako after I am sending her text, and when I call back, I didnt hear she speak anything. Are she mad that I am sending text, or something else ?
Quang ming may really mad by me. Anson too, no matter how much text that I send, he just not respond to any of it. Also for Minera and Sher ? I am look so poor and stupid.
3 day before my birthday, with my 30$ left, I wish that God may help me get through my 33th age. I have no idea what is gonna happeen, should it be end there ?
But deep down, I just believe that Ako gonna help me.
I have this weird fantasy, when I can get over from this probleem, I may visit her every 3 or 4 month in date 28. I also fix my broken relations with other. Its all inside my mind, and I really wish that I am gonna make it happen.
When I help mom take a bath, and look at her. Now I know how she feel. When she had no money, when there is nobody was there to help her. When she dont know how to give her kid a proper food. She wen through it too.
I keep losing money. I dont have a job, and I hope for monthly event at LW.
I have no idea how I am gonna make it, and begging to people for help is not the answer anymore, isnt it ?
At this difficulity, I am only hope that God show me the way out. And honestly, what is on my mind right now ?
I am better die than become a burden to my family.
Think about it, I cant leave like that, am I ?
Just keep going and let it be the way that what God want it to be.
I am too sins and I just wish that I can fix all my mistake.
