Its been a while since the last time I write my daily here. I been busy, yes I am.
Thankfully, when there is nobody left to help me, God give me something that I am never imagine, the event to sell candle and in 4 day, I can get enough.
Its my last chance to do better. I am scare but I just want to keep trying it. Slowly, slowly, hope I can get better and I really wish that there is gonna be consistent event each month, so I can do better too. I wish that I can sell well, manage money better, and by the end of years, I can buy mini car to take mom around.
In event, I just talk to some people, because some of other already hate me. I dont know but I just know. The one who I like, being cold and smile a little when she pass around my stand, and never pass me anymore since then. Because I am not asking her for some event idea ? Or because I try to borrow some money from her and she not reply anything ?
Other, is the one who tell me her sad story, and when we trust her enough and tell her what is going on, she just telling her sister and we end up in very bad term. I am not visiting them anymore or talking to them, let alone say whatever they gonna say.
When I went to event, I get a good driver but when I am going home, the driver was bad enough that make me drop myself in from of the street before home. I know that some is my fault but I jsut think he is the only driver that asking for extra tips because I am load the item.
Well, noww all I do is back to my old activity but with a hope that I can do better, pay debt bit by bit and not get greedy. I also hope that God help me get through this dark time, and I can start my 33 with smile and a very optimis hope to be and get better.
