I am mad to myself, but also for the first time, I am feeling more alive after 5 years. There is always a day without looking at screen and worried all the time for the past 5 years, and today is the day that I can enjoy making candle.
My bank is only have 100K, I am gonna use it for grab car to mall in Thrusday because I have a space for event. I making candle all day, like a normal person working, wishing that I can sell well and start over again in Monday.
The motorcycle sure is due already, I also dont buy any food because I only have 100k.
I am changing my IG picture, which mean that I am really done asking and begging. There is only me and God that can fix my problem.
I dont know what is gonna happen next, but I am sure making planning to pay motorcycle from the first day selling. Wishing I can also get 200USD at the end of the day, but who will know what is gonna happen actually ?
At very least, even I already lose everything, and even there is nobody that will help me anymore, somehow here come a space to selling candle. I am happy and I know that is happen because God have some plan.
It may be hurt, and I hurt myself and faith pretty much too. But in the end, God always help me in a way that I am never expect. God answer our prayer in different ways, and this time, I know deep down that I am gonna make it.
This day until Tuesday, it may teach me how to be patient. I am not gonna let greedy take over my life, and wish that by God grace, I can fix myself and become the better version of me.
Hope everything be OK.
Its OK not to having friend, because all I need is just God, who provide me everything and help me get through my hard time. If people look down at me, that is on them, because I dont really care anymore about that.
